rewind.

i take that back. i didnt have that feeling anymore because i didnt end up sleeping alone.
:]

cold feet.

that's me thinking about sleeping alone tonight, except without that smile...

mhmmm. i haven't been by myself without her for a while now; with the exception of times of different class schedules. i like keeping things short, so im just going to say sleeping alone tonight is not going to be pleasant.

P.S.
But Valentine's Day was really yummy.

i love Chianny

i love Chianny
i love Chianny
i love Chianny
i love Chianny
i love Chianny
i love Chianny
i love Chianny times infinity more.

-says David

summer run.

i don't know what to think right now. i want to graduate already, but i don't want to leave. well a part of me does, and part of me doesn't. it's like i'm excited for change yet i'm afraid of it as well.

aside from graduation, i'm just looking forward to college and getting a summer job. maybe perhaps i'll intern at the community hospital, but you know, no pay. i guess i rather get a job somewhere in the mall then, preferably at a retail store like pacsun or vans.

well, i'll start applying later because right now, i'm just sick and tired of everything. seems like i put so much effort but i get no return. i want to be free from this feeling.

no end.

well ohkay. i didn't win prom king, but every thing's going to be alright. on the bright side, that night was, how would i say it, kinda "magical'? with kinda being an understatement.

prom did make me realize a few things though. one of which is that life's been wonderful, but the timing is not. the year has gone by really quickly. its like i've fallen asleep this whole year and i just awoken now. as the end of senior year approaches, i also feel like more and more of my friends are moving apart. And that everyone is finding different alternatives to fill the void left behind, which isn't a bad thing. we all have to seek to be more independent after all. some find new hobbies while others renew old friendships or begin new ones. all of which, i think, are a little too late.

one by one, the days count down. the end is inevitable.

sensation.

i'm feeling too good to be nervous, too good to be afraid.
i truly enjoy this. i like her.

i'm going to rock the prom court scene. hopefully.

stupid thoughts.

im tired of things. frustration overwhelms me.